Tonight in the tub I had a revelation.  It is time to be real.

I had a post typed out ready to publish when I realized that I wasn’t being real with myself or anyone else.  It talked about all the reasons I have been MIA lately, the main one being that we moved.  It was all nice and pretty with pictures of our new apartment.  While there is nothing wrong with that, it wasn’t what really needed to be talked about right now.  Right now I need to talk about my weight loss- or lack thereof.

I wish I could say I have been steadily losing weight these past 4 months, but that would be a lie.  I have in fact put back on 13 pounds.  I realize that doesn’t seem like a big deal, but for me it is.  I am 200 pounds currently- I have a long way to go.  I do not want to be on the weight roller coaster anymore…ever.  Because of that, I need to be real.  I worked hard to lose the weight I did and it really sucks to see it come back.  I made this blog with the intention of helping keep myself accountable and I haven’t been utilizing it at all.  So while there has been a lot going on in my life, the real reason for the hiatus was just that I wasn’t being real about my situation and wasn’t ready to face it.  Now that this is all in the open, I am back and ready to go. 

Onto lighter things… breakfast (or snacks).  I have been looking around for some new things to try for breakfast and snacks.  I am really trying to eat real foods- as close to whole, natural foods as possible.  An out with the nutrigrain bar, in with the oatmeal type of thing.  I read a lot of health food blogs and see a lot of yummy looking foods as a result.  The other day I stumbled across the Dough Boy Smoothie on Kath Eats.  It was amazing!!  I modified it a bit by leaving out the chia seeds (didn’t have any) and adding 1/2 scoop of chocolate protein powder.  It was insane.  I will be having another one tomorrow. It is the same concept of overnight oats but much better in my opinion.  I have trouble eating my oats cold but when I blended them it was magic.  Seriously, give it a try!  I added some peanut butter on top of mine- delish. 

So now that I have outed myself and am being real I can tell you that I am over gaining weight and am back on the weight loss train!

That is, after my 5 guys burger tonight! (You know they are too good to resist- don’t judge!)